This might be a risky post but I'm going with it.
There are a lot of social expectations, conventions, rules and values in life, aren't there? I certainly think so. You're expected to do, say and think certain things. You're expected to be good at certain things and dislike others (things, not people). This can get even more complicated within your own social circle, work environment or for 'someone your age'.
With some of these things — things I should or shouldn't do, things that are or aren't expected of me — I go against the grain. Not always deliberately; some things I'd really like to do or be good at.
So, what are they?
It's not cool and it's not glamorous but I enjoy eating beans on toast, as well as hot dogs which I know are all the shit bits of the meat. I sometimes eat until I've made myself feel sick because it tastes so. good. I don't always brush my teeth or take my make-up off before I go to bed. And I know that I should. Totally aware. But I don't. Some weekends, I don't want to shower. I mean, I want to be showered, but I cannot be arsed to go through the process of actually getting in the shower, washing and drying my hair and doing something with my fizzog. I enjoy having needle injections and pressing bruises. It's weird and it's gross, but I do.
Society and your contemporaries expect you to be good at geography don't they? Well, I'm not. I don't know how or why, I must've decided at some point to just ignore this. But this is one thing I would like to be and am trying to be better at. Visiting places is what works for me; I can then place them on a map. And another thing, I can't judge temperature. You know, when the weather report tells you that it's going to be 19°C outside today, I don't know whether that means I need a coat or not. I know what cold and hot are, but with these mid-range temperatures, I'm lost! An ex found this hilarious. Oh and I'm a slow reader. Powering through a book in a day or two isn't a regular occurrence and I've learnt it's probably because I'm not a scan reader. Speed spelling is a slight issue too. If I ask someone how to spell a certain word, e.g. necessary, if at lightening speed they reel off 'n-e-c-e-s-s-a-r-y', I struggle.
I'm a big fan of veg! But sometimes, I don't eat all of the veg on my plate. And I'm not going to eat them just because they're good for me. If they're raw and taste like shit, they're going to get shunned. Harry Potter is not for me. Everyone is supposed to love it but I don't and I have no desire to find out. Which leads me on to my next point; if everyone is doing something, I really don't want to do it. I remember trying on a pair of shoes and the saleswoman saying they were very popular and a lot of people had bought them. I couldn't get them off my feet fast enough!! I don't want to buy an iPhone, die my hair ombre style, hate Amazon for their tax avoidance or put quinoa in everything (not to mention the fact that the Western demand for the stuff has made it too expensive for Bolivians and Peruvians to buy meaning their main food source is now completely unobtainable! See here.).
A BAD PERSON.
Laughing at and assessing people. It happens. I do it. And I don't think it's in a mean way. Like, if someone trips, and it looks comical, I'm going to laugh. But if they hurt themselves, it's not funny. Sometimes I'm pretty selfish and short with people. I don't always automatically ask people how their weekend was, or even remember what they said they were going to be doing that weekend. Walking past a homeless person stresses me out, because I feel guilty about not giving them money. And then I notice I've made it all about me! I've already talked about being a bad friend by some people's standards. And I don't say Happy Birthday to people on Facebook. Nor do I feel guilty about that.
I'm sure others have similar quirks and traits, and I have plenty of others where I do conform that 'outweigh' these. But sometimes these expectations, rules and conventions stick in my throat a little.